ahhhh....friends.
Friends...can't live without them. They're the family you choose. They're people that you've chosen in one way or another to have in your life. There is no blood connection. There is no romance (at least not usually...). I've been thinking about friends a lot lately. I'm not totally sure why...but it's been on my mind.
I guess with me moving out in just over a month now, I've been re-evaluating my life in general. And for me, friends play a huge role. They almost are my life. With every fun story or "remember when" moments...I always, ALWAYS had a friend there. I don't know what I'd do without them.
Sarah recently wrote in her blog about friends...how some come in your life for shorter periods than others - and that's okay. And some are always there to support you and listen...even if you might not always realize this. Looking at your friendships every so often is important. If someone is constantly bringing you down or making you feel uncomfortable - why are they in your life? You get to choose your friends: choose people that make your life a better one. Here's what she wrote: http://spaces.msn.com/members/sarahowen/Blog/cns!1pAPCTinH6dU8YfslBuJIQ_Q!1986.entry
I've found that some of my friends aren't that excited about me moving out, or at least they haven't shown that they are. I might be sounding selfish, but that bothers me. I understand if some are jealous that they aren't - I know I would be! Just be happy for me. This is a really big time in my life. I've never moved. I mean, NEVER. The house I'm living in right now is the only house that I've ever called my home. And now I'm leaving it. It scares me. It makes me want to cry. It makes me remember all the amazing times I've had here....birthdays, Christmas parties, sleepovers, backyard parties, etc.
But. It also makes me BEYOND EXCITED! I want to jump up and down and tell everyone that "I'M MOVING!!! I'M GETTING MY OWN APARTMENT!!! I'M GONNA BE INDEPENDENT!!!" Okay. I'll also be just a *bit* poorer...but I'll have my own kitchen. I won't be able to go to as many concerts...but I'll have my own front door. My own living room. My own dish scrubber god dammit!!! It will all be m-i-n-e. (Well, some will be Meg's too...lol.)
Sigh. I'm not really sure where I'm going with all of this. I just know that some friends haven't been that fun to be around lately because of my moving. They're very "me, me, me" - at a time when I don't have the energy or honestly, the desire - to be all that supportive. It can be very frustrating. I'll say something about new dishes I've recently bought...and then they'll say "oh yeah...I've got dishes at home too." Right. Okay. That's nice. Except, you know what? You're NOT MOVING OUT! ARGH. I am. Not you. When you are, I'll be nice and supportive and jump for joy too! Just be excited with me right now.
Wow, I sound like a real bitch. I'm really not trying to be!! I'm just speaking my mind... Okay....moving away from the moving topic...back to friends.
I have this amazing group of friends. Some of them are from long ago...friends that have changed in the past few years as much as I have. I'm so glad I met them then...because honestly, I have no clue where I would meet them today! And if they weren't in my life...I wouldn't be the person I am. I owe them so much. We do have our differences...but we always find our way back to each other. Sometimes we're close and other times we drift apart - but that's okay. We always find a way to reconnect...after all - we have a history. That's something that nobody can ever take away from us. Then. There's these newer friends. They're a bit more on the wild side...they like to party it up a bit more...they're my bar friends. Hahaha. They're my band lovin' friends. I'm closer to some of them than others, and like all friends we go through phases! I almost always have a blast with these guys...and I can guarantee that 99% of the time when I've had too much to drink - these friends are there getting drunk with me! I love them to bits. Haha. Then there's the "church" friends, the "internet" friends (yes, it's true, hahaha) and my beloved "work" friends. It's amazing the places that you meet your friends. My closest friends come from the most eclectic mix of places. Maybe that's just the kind of person I am. Maybe I need that mixture...who knows.
All I really know, is that I love my friends. And I'm sorry if sometimes I don't show it or if I don't call you or if I don't act excited about seeing you (that's awful, haha). But I am. I'm only human and I get tired. I can be emotional. I'm almost always stressed out. My life is currently undergoing some massive changes...just let me be who I need to be right now, and I'll see you all at the end....whenever that may be...lol.
Ok. Rant over.
xo C.
I guess with me moving out in just over a month now, I've been re-evaluating my life in general. And for me, friends play a huge role. They almost are my life. With every fun story or "remember when" moments...I always, ALWAYS had a friend there. I don't know what I'd do without them.
Sarah recently wrote in her blog about friends...how some come in your life for shorter periods than others - and that's okay. And some are always there to support you and listen...even if you might not always realize this. Looking at your friendships every so often is important. If someone is constantly bringing you down or making you feel uncomfortable - why are they in your life? You get to choose your friends: choose people that make your life a better one. Here's what she wrote: http://spaces.msn.com/members/sarahowen/Blog/cns!1pAPCTinH6dU8YfslBuJIQ_Q!1986.entry
I've found that some of my friends aren't that excited about me moving out, or at least they haven't shown that they are. I might be sounding selfish, but that bothers me. I understand if some are jealous that they aren't - I know I would be! Just be happy for me. This is a really big time in my life. I've never moved. I mean, NEVER. The house I'm living in right now is the only house that I've ever called my home. And now I'm leaving it. It scares me. It makes me want to cry. It makes me remember all the amazing times I've had here....birthdays, Christmas parties, sleepovers, backyard parties, etc.
But. It also makes me BEYOND EXCITED! I want to jump up and down and tell everyone that "I'M MOVING!!! I'M GETTING MY OWN APARTMENT!!! I'M GONNA BE INDEPENDENT!!!" Okay. I'll also be just a *bit* poorer...but I'll have my own kitchen. I won't be able to go to as many concerts...but I'll have my own front door. My own living room. My own dish scrubber god dammit!!! It will all be m-i-n-e. (Well, some will be Meg's too...lol.)
Sigh. I'm not really sure where I'm going with all of this. I just know that some friends haven't been that fun to be around lately because of my moving. They're very "me, me, me" - at a time when I don't have the energy or honestly, the desire - to be all that supportive. It can be very frustrating. I'll say something about new dishes I've recently bought...and then they'll say "oh yeah...I've got dishes at home too." Right. Okay. That's nice. Except, you know what? You're NOT MOVING OUT! ARGH. I am. Not you. When you are, I'll be nice and supportive and jump for joy too! Just be excited with me right now.
Wow, I sound like a real bitch. I'm really not trying to be!! I'm just speaking my mind... Okay....moving away from the moving topic...back to friends.
I have this amazing group of friends. Some of them are from long ago...friends that have changed in the past few years as much as I have. I'm so glad I met them then...because honestly, I have no clue where I would meet them today! And if they weren't in my life...I wouldn't be the person I am. I owe them so much. We do have our differences...but we always find our way back to each other. Sometimes we're close and other times we drift apart - but that's okay. We always find a way to reconnect...after all - we have a history. That's something that nobody can ever take away from us. Then. There's these newer friends. They're a bit more on the wild side...they like to party it up a bit more...they're my bar friends. Hahaha. They're my band lovin' friends. I'm closer to some of them than others, and like all friends we go through phases! I almost always have a blast with these guys...and I can guarantee that 99% of the time when I've had too much to drink - these friends are there getting drunk with me! I love them to bits. Haha. Then there's the "church" friends, the "internet" friends (yes, it's true, hahaha) and my beloved "work" friends. It's amazing the places that you meet your friends. My closest friends come from the most eclectic mix of places. Maybe that's just the kind of person I am. Maybe I need that mixture...who knows.
All I really know, is that I love my friends. And I'm sorry if sometimes I don't show it or if I don't call you or if I don't act excited about seeing you (that's awful, haha). But I am. I'm only human and I get tired. I can be emotional. I'm almost always stressed out. My life is currently undergoing some massive changes...just let me be who I need to be right now, and I'll see you all at the end....whenever that may be...lol.
Ok. Rant over.
xo C.
posted by Christine at 10:13 p.m.
5 Comments:
Friends can be so complicated sometimes, I totally get it.
I for one am excited for you to move out, even though you won't be living as close to me :(
I will get to come visit you at your place and Meg will be here!
What is with us not seeing eachother all summer? We need to get together soon. Let me know if you are going to Hard Rock Miners cause I'd love to see them!
Good luck with all your moving/friends stuff! Everything will work out in the end
PS I can't imagine you two not going to your fair share of concerts, no matter how broke you are!
Love ya, babe. :)
And it's so hard for me at this new work right now because I can't tell them yet that I'm quitting in a month!! HAHA! So awful! But I want to tell everyone I meet that I'm moving to Vancouver! ACK! TORTURE!!!! I swear I haven't met any guys who want to have a relationship lately because I tell them within like 5 minutes of meeting them that I'm moving! LMAO! I can't help it! SO EXCITED!!!
I totally know what you mean though...I went to my old HS friends wedding the other night and saw all the old gang and it was so strange. Some hadn't changed at all and some had changed a ton...some reminded me why I was never really friends with them, haha, and some reminded me that I always loved hanging out with them and wish we were still in contact more. It's strange how friends come and go...one said her and her b/f are moving to BC next year and I can totally see us becoming friends again out there, I always missed her! Then I see the friend who was my 'best friend' my whole life and sometimes I wonder why. We had good times, but in the end I have realized that though we had good times, I didn't like who *I* was when I was with her. I've moved on from that person yet she still tries to revert me back to being that person, a person with no confidence or independance. I have NO TIME for friends like that any more! Someone would couldn't POSSIBLY give YOU a compliment! Who has time for that? And who has time for friends that every time you say something about your life they find a way to make it about them?? I'm SO with you on that one!
I've been freakin out too and a bit edgy about it all...but the new job and my parents and I worked out a money plan that has given me some relief. So I can allow myself to be excited now!!! I've always been excited but I just couldn't be all like totally freaking out excited with that hanging over my head. Ya know?
And NOW....I'm wondering just how much stuff you've bought us!! LMAO! I think you need to make a detailed list...not that I'm complaining! LOL Just interested to know what all you have now...you crazy person! I went to buy those cool glasses I was telling you about before (the beer style pint glasses with the pin up girls on them, haha, which sounds wrong...but they were awesome!) but the store didn't have them any more! GRRR! I am going nutso though cause I can't buy stuff for the house right now...I can't wait to get there so we can go shopping!!!!!!!!!!!!
Take care foomie......;) We are gonna have so much fun!!!!!!
Meg
Michelle...
I dunno how we are going to survive not going to a ton of concerts either!! LOL!! Guess they will have to be cheap ones...;) Can't wait to hang out with ya (and everyone else!) more soon!!! Yay!!!
Christine, you rock! I can't wait to see you soon, not sure when but soon. I have been a bad friend, however I am so excited for your ikea purchases, and Danny Michel coming and you perhaps coming out to the whiterock hood to see my place :) cheers mate! here's to always being friends
Sarah Owen x.
Okay, so completely randomly found this blog! I've actually been thinking the same thing recently about friends as family...I am so so so excited for you to be moving downtown! I know that this is something that you've been wanting to do for quite some time...So Congratulations Girl!! You're finally doing it! I hope that it turns out to be everything that you want and/or need it to be! On a completely selfish side note: GDT just won't be the same without you!! Call me sometime once you get settled so that we can catch up on the last little while...Miss you like mad! I'm squeeing on the inside with excitement for you!! :)
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